Saturday, February 17, 2007
My mom bought me a new book last night as a belated Valentine's present and I must say, she did a good job. I had told her that Captivating by John & Staci Eldredge had been recommending to me by my friend Caitlin so she figured it was a must read. :) I started reading it this morning at like 8:30 and am already over 3/4 of the way through. haha! Once I get into something I like, I just can't seem to put it down. There are few passages that definately made me think and even a few more that brought me to tears. Not so much that I was sad, but more that I finally realized that I am not the only one who feels the way I do. For quite some time now, I felt that all the emotions within me were merely those of a hopeless romantic doomed to a life of "what if's?" when in reality, I share those same emotions with a plethora of other people. The things I hope for and desire aren't so outlandish, I just haven't been looking in the right place. Don't get me wrong!! I'm no floozie! haha! I haven't been doing that sort of searching, but I was diluting myself into believing I would find happiness in another person if only I could find him. I have known for quite some time that God is my Number One and finding my mate meant finding my Number Two, but it was so hard to push those thoughts of yearning aside and focus on myself and my relationship with God. After reading this book, I realize that I don't have to forgo romance and passion until my Number Two finally comes along, I just find romance and passion within my ever budding relationship with God. He romances me with beauty all the time, I just shield it from view. Who needs flowers on Valentine's Day when you have a sunset to watch? Right? Okay, okay...people, I'm trying here. :) haha! This is an incredible book and I highly recommend it to any man who wants to attempt to understand the inner workings of a womans heart or to any woman who feels they need a refresher course in seeing their own beauty. Someday, we will all figure out that we're each captivating.