This has been a very interesting day. I have felt probably every possible emotion known to human kind today. I am to the point now, where all I want to do is cry. I want to sit in my room...alone...and make myself bawl. Oh..oh...done. Mission accomplished. I feel that more often then not, if I cry myself to sleep, whatever it was I was crying about doesn't seem quite so bad in the morning.
Have you ever just had a day where you couldn't find the words to say ANYTHING you wanted to? There are so many thoughts running through my head right now that I have absolutely no idea how to make ANY sense of them. For example, my speech tonight. During every trial run I did of this stupid speech, I was over time. So, what do I do? I speed up! I rush through it and get docked a letter grade for coming in under the time limit. And to top that off, I couldn't tell you what I said. Now, as I sit here, trying to write emails and blogs, all my words are swimming with no place to go and all my ideas have sought refuge for the evening. So instead, I shall share with you the words of a guy who claimed to love me long, long ago...'I sit and stare, unaware, of things yet unseen. For who can say what tomorrow brings. For who cares to see the day that past. For miles gone and miles ahead, nothing can stop what is to come. So smile my love and join me, For when you are here I sit and stare, unaware...but happy all the same.'