Today has been a pretty crazy day. I have so many things to do that I have no idea where to start. Tomorrow I have to work and leave immediately for a group meeting with my Speech group and then leave that early to go babysit. I don't have my materials ready for the speech group yet either, which is stressing me out to some degree, but it will all work out. I should have stayed home to finish, but rather, I went to Intoxicated at church again. I think that since I was there praying feverishly, that God will find it in his divine and infinite wisdom to help me pass college with A's. At least that's what I'm telling myself. Katie and I were the church goers this evening and we had a good time. I know I learned alot. It's funny how every Wednesday, I think he's talking to ME. It's as if to say, "Liz, what are you thinking?!" I have known for quite some time that I have a lot of work to do with myself before I could ever make someone else happy, but I have been focusing on my 'wants' instead of my 'needs'. I need to work on myself first, cause people, I have NOTHING to offer anyone right now. Seriously. What would I say? Hi, I'm Liz. I work and go to school...and yeah...that's it. I have goals for improvement, now I just have to work on that. One of the things Pastor Craig mentioned is that people who go to bars to meet 'the one' are sadly mistaken. If you have to have a drink or two in order to have enough courage to go up and talk to someone, what does that say about what you have to offer? Bars are not where I intend to meet people. How would that story to the grandkids go? 'I met your grandpa in a bar and man was I drunk! I was dancin' on the tables and he was the first guy to put a dollar in my pants. It was love at first sight.'
One of my main goals is to have patience. I have to learn that I can't have everything I want right now, because it's just not the right time, plain and simple. I have been working on getting my finances in order as well as attempting to focus more heavily on school. I am now attending church on a regular basis. I am working to make myself the secure, steady and comfortable person that I want to be. Then and only then will I be ready for what I 'want'. Right? Tell me I'm right. :) Goodnight all.
Delight yourself in the Lord and hew ill give you the desires of your heart. Psalms 37:4